It's about time I admit it. That I danced too much for my own good. Tried to handle too many things for my own good. Indancity, Indancity exco, Caderas, tuition, school. A combination too overwhelming for me to handle. I managed to tide over the horrible term that just passed, but barely. Now it's like the aftermath of it all. Trying to make sense of it all and accept whatever that's left and move on.
I'm still in shock. I think I'm sad; disappointed too; guilty, and also regretful. All at the same time. There's no one to blame but myself now. And I know I'll have to drop some of my commitments before it's too late. I think I'll most likely drop my tuition, and rethink the way I'm spending my time on my 2 dance ccas and also exco stuff. I need more time for myself. To study, to think, to read, to spend time with my family...
I've a lot of bucking up to do next term, and I don't know whether I'm ready for it yet. I need to think of a way...there must be a way..
I'll think tomorrow. Can't think now. I don't know what to do and emails keep coming in..bombarding my mind, my thoughts. I must say that I never thought that being president can be this hard. The way in which exco matters constantly preoccupy me..it's sometimes even pervasive. But I can't get rid of it. I always have this nagging feeling that I've things undone. And more often than not, this is true.
But I'm sure I can cope with it somehow. I'll manage somehow. I know I can. But not now...I feel a bit drained and exhausted, mentally..
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