my bag - rearranged (:

i've been eating out quite a bit with friends recently, and shopping too :/ sigh, feeling guilty about all the spending. i think i need to reduce my expenditure when school starts. okay, maybe not when school starts. maybe i should start from next week onwards. boohoo. if not at this rate that i'm going, i don't think i'll be saving much. 

oh yes, i met up with song, selene, christl and siqi that day, at holland v! it was nice seeing them (except for sikhi) after such a loong long time! everyone was more or less still the same, which i was glad, cos it gave me that inexplicable and warm sense of familiarity when you meet up with old friends :) it was a simple affair - dinner at a restaurant called Breks, sitting in the open where the air was cool after a shower. we didn't crack hilarious jokes or played games and roar with laughter; we merely chatted and reminisced about the good old ny days :) it was a good feeling. sometimes i feel that friendships forged during my secondary school days are the strongest and most lasting. i don't know how true this is, but for now - at least - i believe so.

anyway it's back to reality from next week onwards! no more wandering in the world of harry potter with my first camp coming up next week, and another 2 camps following that. i hope the camps will be fun! 

i'm looking forward to tomorrow's national day preview. i hope it'll be worth the while, with some new and surprising elements injected into the show, given the change in venue. and of course i'll be keeping my fingers crossed! pray that there wouldn't be spirit-dampening rain!

but i've to wait till it's my turn to read :/ my bro will be the first, followed by my sis, then me. sigh, cos i'm the slowest reader, boohoo :( i hope my bro doesn't spout some spoiler by accident when he's done with the book!

haha, my bro was telling me abt this youtube video he saw. it was filmed in London, when Harry Potter and the half blood prince was released. there was a long queue of hungry harry potter fans waiting to get their hands on the book, which snaked out of the big bookstore, onto the road. then this insane guy drove up and down along the road next to the bookstore, shouting "Snape killed Dumbledore! Snape killed Dumbledore!" 

horrible spoiler :x

all because of stoopid team building camp, rawr. i mean they should take into consideration the patriotic people around who earnestly want to celebrate national day! okay, i think i sound rather gross. BUT anyway, it's a public holiday. the camp shouldn't be held on a public holiday :x

now i've to settle for the preview i guess

first i woke up early when i didn't mean to wake up that early cos i didn't sleep that early the previous night. but i woke up at 7 plus, 8 anyway. then i had to brace myself for the arranged meeting at the place opposite my hse. awkward episode. fortunately it's over now! i think i was pretty mean during the short but seemingly eternal 45 mins or so at the place opposite my hse. my sister said so too. but..but i couldn't help it! when i'm feeling repulsed, irritated, angry, or whatever, i just show it. i mean i didn't purposely try to reduce eye contact to the minimum (okayy, maybe i did it with the hope and purpose of deterrence in mind). i feel mean and a bit guilt-ridden, but it's over now and i can't do anything, so i'll just leave it as that. 

that took away my morning. next, the Awards Presentation Ceremony occupied the rest of my day. i was whining to my sis about how i regretted agreeing to go for the ceremony, cos i suspected that it would be a time-consuming and boring affair. true enough, it was by and large the case. the only saving grace was the reception, haha. cos i was starving and i managed to meet limen again and chat with her. i met yan and wan too, and we decided that we should've a chi dance outing before everyone starts to get busy with uni! limen will be leaving for chicago. she's the only dancer going overseas, so i asked her what is the last place she would want to visit before she leaves s'pore. and u know what she told me? changi airport!? that's more like the place she has to visit before she leaves s'pore. so now she's thinking hard about where she wants to go and hopefully we can arrange our outing soon before it's too late! ok, back to the ceremony. it was boring throughout, though i must admit that i thought steph ko's speech was well-written and entertaining (so was ms grace fu's speech, which was quite interesting too), though i don't think i feel the same way as she does about hwa chong. it's wonderful that hwa chong holds a very special place in her heart, but i doubt i dare say the same thing applies for me. maybe it's the people, like she said. it's the people whom you mix with...and perhaps yourself too. well, at least there are my dance mates, cos i wouldn't say that my class is closely-knit. only 3 ppl from our class (including me) turned up for the ceremony! how pathetic is that? 

the worst thing about the ceremony is that i wouldn't have agreed to go if my parents decided not to go. well, obviously they agreed to go and that's why i turned up in school today. but they didn't turn up in the end!! they smsed me to say that they couldn't attend cos they had to prepare stuff for a function they had later on :x AND my mum didn't even sound apologetic on the phone, when i called her! hmph! at least my dad sounded a lil apologetic in his sms. but i'm not angry already now cos my mum's always like that anyway (time to get used to it - i'm still trying very hard) and they missed their function due to a horrible traffic jam. they were stuck on the road for past an hour! should pity them too, haha.

i realise that i've been blogging abt sad things tho happy things like mon's outing with e rest of the LA square founders (chien,sikhi,cher) and debs at the mind cafe was SUPER FUN! it was hilarious. had a mighty good time tho it was only a measly 2 hrs. we'll be holding another themindcafe outing real soon, CAN'T WAIT! yay! 

pls pls, cherlyn, end work soon! so that we can take advantage of the happy hour! ladies nite, yes yes. free flow of drinks and cheap rates, oho :D

my only complaint was the "i'm the boss" game..i kept trying to send ppl away cos i was utterly confused, boohoo. i think i dun really have a business mind, oh no, and i'm taking a business course!? and i got cheated by cherlyn tan for one of the deals lor :( 

oh wells, nvm, i still can't wait for our nxt outing, hehe. more mindless games and hopefully no more especially enthusiastic (put euphemistically) waiter! seriously, he was like "tsk tsk" with his hands behind his back and all. as if we're small kids who've done wrong! :x

I think I'm starting to get used to doing more and more things alone! Is that bad? I seem to be beginning to do more things, like shopping, alone - something I've never done before until recently. That day I even went to orchard library alone to return a book and read Harry Potter! It's not that doing stuff alone feels horrible, in fact shopping alone, for example, has its advantages. You can take your time to browse anything you like; you can just have a look at the things you have an interest in, and you can revisit whatever shop you like to peek at the item you have been eyeing - without feeling bad. Yet...yet shopping alone still leaves me feeling inevitably lonely inside, I don't know why. It seems so contradictory.

When you stop working and have more time to yourself, your mind starts to wonder. I've been thinking...

I've been thinking about how I'm not exactly a very sociable person, which is quite sad, really. I'm feeling sad and regretful that I've lost contact with quite a lot of my ex-classmates because I'm not used to being the one who takes the initiative to contact people and keep in touch. It's not that I don't want to. I don't have the courage to. Especially since I've not done it before, it seems all the more strange and awkward:/ sigh.

I've also been thinking about how I'm not exactly a warm and friendly person. I think some people have the impression that I'm rather cold and detached, preferring to maintain a distance when I don't know people well enough. Sometimes I wish I would warm up to others more quickly...

fortunately after much discussion with my mum and sis we've come up with a solution, phew! can't wait to get over with it soon! it'll be a huge load off my mind.

sighh. bye.

the siew mais are really cute, and yummy too (with 3 fresh prawns in each)!

on our way back to the airport

cihan, me, shiru

6 hot literally hot babes 

(was pretty hot. fortunately it was qt windy too, phew!)

ooh, the coconut trees look nice :)

cool hair, hot babe, haha. watch out for dirty ah pehs!

adorable Jane (my buddy) and i 

my buddy (the kid whom i played and danced with) was Jane. she's really cute, funny and enthusiastic. she made me carry her thousands of times, because loved this move in the banghra dance, where i lift her up and twirl her around. during our tea break i piggy-backed her to the canteen to watch our hands before we had our food. i really felt like a kid again!

the things we did were, well, childish, but fun (: we did things like play choo choo train and act like chickens and elephants. you enter a world of childish fun and innocence, which i must say, is something i find appealing.

since i'm on this topic, i might as well take the opportunity to share more about the programme. it's basically an outreach programme organised by the YMCA. the programme is designed to reach out to less privileged children aged 7 to 12. this year the beneficiaries were children from the YMCA Tao Nan Student Care Centre and YMCA St Margaret's Student Care Centre. the programme is held annually, and there are usually 3 days which you can choose from. the beneficiaries for each day is different, so i guess it may be possible for you to sign up for more than one day if you are interested. 

More information below:

shi shang zhi you ma ma hao

you ma de hai zi xiang ge bao..

i want to create my own blog design, but being the IT idiot that i am, it is too arduous a task to undertake (especially without the help of my sis), so here i am with a skin from blogskin.com. 

anyway credit goes to my pal siqi (aka sikhi) for giving me my new blog add name - gee jay why! :D