I think I'm starting to get used to doing more and more things alone! Is that bad? I seem to be beginning to do more things, like shopping, alone - something I've never done before until recently. That day I even went to orchard library alone to return a book and read Harry Potter! It's not that doing stuff alone feels horrible, in fact shopping alone, for example, has its advantages. You can take your time to browse anything you like; you can just have a look at the things you have an interest in, and you can revisit whatever shop you like to peek at the item you have been eyeing - without feeling bad. Yet...yet shopping alone still leaves me feeling inevitably lonely inside, I don't know why. It seems so contradictory.

When you stop working and have more time to yourself, your mind starts to wonder. I've been thinking...

I've been thinking about how I'm not exactly a very sociable person, which is quite sad, really. I'm feeling sad and regretful that I've lost contact with quite a lot of my ex-classmates because I'm not used to being the one who takes the initiative to contact people and keep in touch. It's not that I don't want to. I don't have the courage to. Especially since I've not done it before, it seems all the more strange and awkward:/ sigh.

I've also been thinking about how I'm not exactly a warm and friendly person. I think some people have the impression that I'm rather cold and detached, preferring to maintain a distance when I don't know people well enough. Sometimes I wish I would warm up to others more quickly...