ahh i'm still achingg..so loser-ish! after like a full day after training and i'm still aching :/

oh yes and by the way i just did a facebook quiz on my handwriting, and the result is that i'm depressive. how wonderful. doesn't make me feel better in any way. and what's more, my friend said that he thinks it's quite accurate :/ though i know online quizzes aren't to be trusted and are supposedly not indicative of what i really am, i can't help but feel slightly (or maybe more) affected. bleahh

on another note, i hope i get my internship soooon

Anyway, it's great that all is over for now. Time to begin working on projects though! Have a psych individual draft paper due coming Mon! And I still haven't thought about what I want to work on..have been researching a little. Was thinking of all sorts of topics, relating to dance, sexuality, memory...I will endeavour to do up my draft tonight! 

Hmm I've resumed latin after InDanCity's Beyond production, and we've learnt a new chacha routine. It's fun, and going for latin practices has renewed my passion and excitement for it :) I spent quite an inordinate amount of time watching latin videos hurhur. And also like practised in front of the huge mirror in my living room haha :) I'll be partnering Edwin this time. I guess we'll be doing novice rising star. Not complaining about that except for the fact that I really don't know when I'll ever get to learn samba and rumba! 

Coming Monday is Tiffy's 21st! Having attended Shiru's 21st and now having Tiffy's one drawing near has made me think about what I wanna do for my 21st. Organizing a party for a large crowd is cumbersome, so I suppose a small gathering would be ideal. But I really don't know who to invite! I mean it's like I wanna invite more people, but that means more trouble, and also having many different groups of people who don't know each other. I don't want my guests to feel awkward. Hmm. I don't usually have a party of any sort to celebrate my birthday, so I wonder whether all this effort for a 21st is worth the while. My sis tried to convince me otherwise. She said you're only 21 once! But come to think of it, you're only every age once! 

Actually even if I plan to invite a large number of guests, the number who will turn up may not be that many. Having my birthday fall in end Nov I think is not good timing at all. It clashes with the exams, and if I decide to celebrate it after everyone's exams - meaning in Dec, I think many people will have travel plans :(

After indancity's production, I haven't been doing much, or you can also see it as I've busy relaxing, enjoying some quiet time with my family and myself at home, and also nursing my illness. I think I was overworked - last term was crazy, and a hectic dance practice schedule followed immediately after in preparation for beyond. my body finally retaliated. It sounded it's displeasure the only way it knew how to - by making me feel feverish and tired. I also had flu symptoms - a persistent cough and thick, green phlegm that wouldn't go away. My illness also robbed me of my sleep - I constantly coughed myself awake during the night. It was quite a painful time to go through. I really hated it when there was a dry scratchy feeling beneath my throat (it's not a sore throat mind you), which made me feel the urge to cough. But nothing would come out. I would cough and cough, and sometimes cough hard enough to induce a feeling of vomiting. This usually happened at night, just before I went to sleep, which made it much more unbearable. Of course I never vomited. That's the bright side of it!

There's also another optimistic way to look at my falling sick! I abstained from snacks during the new year period, so I really had a healthy new year and came out of the Chinese New Year feeling a lot more energetic and healthier :) Unlike some of the Chinese who end up falling ill because of late nights and goodies overdose. I also feel like I've detoxed my body and rid it of toxins! Especially my colon. I've always had problems with digestion and egestion haha. But now I try to eat less processed foods and eat proper meals so that I've enough roughage to allow smooth motion. hurhur. I'm also trying to drink more water. And also drink warm/hot drinks instead of cold ones..I think it helps! Really! :)

But she's truly incorrigible. Perhaps not worth the sympathy I was still feeling for her before finding out how she retorted to my mum. "Don't other maids make such mistakes too?"; "Why can't I leave tonight?"; "It's okay I have my biscuits". Haha okay, the last quote may seem a little out of context. She said that in response to my mum asking her to have her lunch, which my mum bought for her. She refused to eat and said that she had her biscuits. What horrific attitude. Stubborn till the end. Whatever. 

Sometimes it amazes me that she's a mother. So childish in her mannerism and yet she bore a child. Poor child. Really. Not only is she bossy, she's stubborn too, and hypocritical. And just to add, she's not that bright either, though I'm pretty sure she thinks otherwise of herself. Hmm

Okay, I feel rather mean now. Think I'd better stop with my ranting. She'll be leaving monday night. Then it'll be time for us to do our share of household chores each while we search for another. I really hope bro will chip in. Sweep the floor, clean the washroom or something. Speaking of which, there's a lizard happily living in our bathroom! It's feeding on a constant supply of flies that visit our shower cubicle. So now there are much less flies but more traces of a well and active lizard making itself comfortable in our common bathroom. It leaves its excretion lying around as though dropping clues to prove its existence in our bathroom. Bleahh :s 

Hmm..flies or lizard? I feel like choosing the former..

Sighh..I'll really miss all my friends who are going/have gone on exchange. Though some I may not be that close too, I'll still miss them, and of course at the same time envy their fortune. I'll strive for my turn next year! 

Anyway, I don't know what's wrong with me, but I thought I wouldn't feel a sense of loss or sadness when this day is finally here. I thought I would be unaffected, but I guess not. I think I'll need more time to not feel anything when it is around me. I'll refer to ahem as it. It's ok, now I have plenty of time to settle my heart and feelings. 8 months, a long time :)

Oh yes, I think I'd better restate my new years' resolutions clearly here:

1. be on time for classes, meetings, outings

2. not have supper after dance. stick to warm milk and perhaps an apple if hungry

I'm just gonna state to resolutions here. Having too many is impossible to keep. Of course, I'll buck up this term and reach for my As to pull up my GPA! Now that tuition is gone, and possibly less time spent on exco stuff after our production, and also maybe less time spent on latin (don't know who will be my new partner anyway), I'll make more time for studying, reading, and also keeping in touch with my old friends! Like the sevenone girls, LA square members..Come to think of it, it shouldn't be that difficult this year since there will be LOTS of 21st birthday celebrations! Mine is still about a year away though..And I'm quite sure it will be another non-event cos of exams :/ bleah. another couple of years worth of non-birthdays :(

had my first shot at making sushi today! it was quite fun :) hopefully there will be a next time so that i can hone my skills! haha. there wasn't much variety though. we only had 3 types: tuna with cucumber, mango with prawn, and egg with meat floss.

the egg roll is a random item i made to use up the scraps left 

went for latin practice today because swan practice was pushed back. it was nice seeing everyone (almost everyone) back for practice :) the was packed as usual but it was nice having everyone back :) haha i'm just repeating myself aren't i? 

anyway i've thought it through, and i think i'll really drop my tuition. hopefully with that down i'll be able to cope with latin and indancity and also exco next year? if not, i'll have to drop latin...i'll contact my tuition kid's mum tomorrow. sighh but i feel a little guilty and also sad. i just got started on my tuition kid not long ago, and i really want to help him improve. but i just can't afford the time. tuition will be twice a week once dec is over. tuition twice a week inclusive of travelling time etc can be quite time consuming, so with that cleared i think i'll be able to free up quite some time. 

hmm the new year's coming real soon. and of course it's time for new year's resolutions! resolutions are meant to be kept, but new year's resolutions somehow never really stick. i guess the trick to it is not too have too many but really focus on a few (most feasible and plausible ones) and keep them! i have one very important resolution so far:

BE ON TIME. whether for classes or project meetings or meetings with friends. i really need to be punctual. i actually never had such a problem last time. i don't know when it started. i think it started some time after JC and continued through to uni? it's a horrible habit. ahh must kick it now before it's too late!